S-T-R-E-S-S

Its that time of the year when every student must experience what is known as hell week. Hell week is the last week before a final. In most colleges, students get the joy of  DEAD WEEK. However, in a private school, dead week results in hell week! This is the week that everything that matters on your grade is due. This is the collection of work that makes ones grade or destroys it. This week shows every one's true colors. One will be either really dedicated to their work or not give a crap. This is probably the worst week of all weeks. Dead week is half way over for me and I already want to kill everything. Right now, I  am a fuse that is about to explode. Test here, Paper here, Lab report here, then paper there. The list goes on and I just don't think anything will get finished.

The rain has finally stopped and the sun has came out for a glimpse. In Montana, there is a saying: "If you don't like the weather at the moment, wait two to three hours and there is a possibility that it might be better." Weather is on going changing thing here. Good old Great Falls owns the record for the most change in weather in one day. Its recorded that the weather changed a whole 100 degrees one day. Right now, I would love to see an extra hundred degrees. However, sometimes the weather here is a good thing. When it is a negative and some odd degrees outside, it makes it easier to stay inside and get some work done. The bad fall is, no one in their right mind wants to run, let alone walk, in it.

Right now I'm sitting in a library trying to get some motivation to study for the first final of my semester and it is just not happening for me. Instead, I have Adele blasting in my ears and I just stare at all of the people trying to save their grades. The library is truly a biology majors' best friend because no matter what time of day it is, you will only find upper class men in it. You will never see freshmen here and therefore it is peaceful. You also don't see the ones that are not dedicated in here. The ones that want to be loud and ruin their grades wont be found in this place. Instead, the library gives you knowledge hungry people. People who want to learn everything possible.

Also, I can not study because all I can think about is one of my buddies. Last night probably was the worst night of his life. Something major happened to him and I don't think there is anything that I can do for him. I can not relate because this situation has never happened to me. I can't understand why people do terrible things to good people. I can not understand how to make his life a better place. I can not get over this. What happened to him is something I would never wish upon my biggest enemies any day. My heart just goes out to him and I want him to know that things will get better through time. Right now, all I can think about doing is making him everything that is in my house for him. They say food really heals the pain and I do believe that. Looks like I have some major cooking to do for him. Last night will be a night to stay with me for the duration of a life time.

For now, its time to cram some ecology in. Time to prepare for some stats. Finally, time to cram for the hardest week of my life. Lets hope I can stay a float this week

Puddle Jumping

Rain! It might just be the second worst thing that comes from the sky. It has that wetness feeling to it and even if it is just a mist, you will being feeling wet at some part. I know that might just be the nastiest thing to say but rain makes everyone wet. The worst thing about rain is, you can never find a way to be dry in it. However, in Montana, rain can be a good thing because it means that its not the coldest thing ever. Today, rain was the perfect thing ever. Rain was a refreshing thing. Rain seemed to make the day go by a little bit better.

Today just seemed liked a day of failure! Today made hard work crash down like the stock market in the 30's! I get so mad because I try so hard to get everything perfect! I try so hard in everything I do. Being a full time student, full time athlete and basically a full time employee is the hardest thing ever. I can't wait for about two more weeks to be over. Stress is in high bloom and I don't see it parting its ways soon enough. I am ready to be free of stress.  I tell my self that this shall all be over soon. The worst part of it is, running has become placed on the back burner. There is just not enough time in the day to get everything accomplished. The only thing going for is the fact that I get to watch rain fall down and wash everything away. Time to go run some puddles not just in the street but in the run of life. 

Death of Spokane

Being on a track team has it ups and downs. We all get the joy of being crammed into a bus and travel from one place to the next. Usually, a bus trip never has a problem for me due the greatness of sleep. On a good day, we load up, get going, and I pass out till its time to get off. However, this wasn't one of those trips. Instead, I can't sleep. So I watch a movie. Hoping that a two hour movie would get me about half way to spokane, I get disappointed to find that I am wrong. The greatness of Montana is that it can snow when ever it feels the need to. I finished my movie only to determine that we were stuck in the middle of Rogers Pass. We hadn't even made it to the half way mark. Being stuck on the pass did a number on the bus because the driver didn't want to put chains on. Instead, we got the joy of rocking back and forth for a while. Somehow this damaged the bus and caused it spring a leak. When we got to the half way mark, we discovered the bus was broken.

Being stuck allowed for us to stay at a gas station for three hours. Three hours of nothing! A gas station is probably the worse place to be stuck at. There is nothing to do. The highlight was eating nasty flavored jelling beans in the hope of getting something good. Boredom,  was everywhere! As much as I enjoy being near my team, I was so annoyed with them. We finally got a bus and were once again head to the meet. I was able to sleep once again but was woken up to their annoying little game.

To make this trip any worse, I was stuck with the most annoying person on the team as a roommate for the night. This kid just wouldn't shut up. Everyone in the room had the been in bed and still kept going. At one moment, we managed to lock him out of the room for some quietness.

The next day, while running a 5k, I had one of the most terrible race of my life. A mile into the race, my body was just tired. I wasn't even going hard. My body shut it self off and couldn't find a way to get thing out of my legs. This made it to where my mind just shut off. "I guess its time to get the Iron check", says the coach. Looking back, I have nothing to really improve on. It makes it really hard to run when this crap happens. I have worked so hard and just came off a good cross season. There is no reason why I should be preforming this shitty! I can't wait to have a motivation again!